My life is like a heinous merry go round. Up and down, up and down we go until the ride is over and you need to add 25 more cents for the ride to resume.
As of today, I feel like I should let all my anxiety and stress rule my ED and shun food, again. I went to the downtown mall yesterday, and lo and behold I meet another man. Another man whom I am so easily charmed by, and I smile and smile until my cheek muscles ache. He told me sweet nothings: my eyes were mesmerizing, I was open-minded, intelligent, beautiful, I want to see you again. I've heard it all before, and yet, I am so effortlessly captured in a web of charisma and roguish charm, that I loose all my reason and fold tout de suite. His name is Rone. I flirted fluently and inaudibly. We were in the Library, I was sitting on a window ledge and he picks a book from the mystery shelf and asks my opinion. That's how it began, but the ending is no where in sight. He must be 10+ years my senior and yet, I felt enmeshed already. It's was like friendship at first sight, if that's comprehensible.
I've gone mad as hatter, again, and just like last time, there is no one to pull all stops and help me of the merry-go-round.
Made a photo blog (gah!):
http://lenasicle.tumblr.com/
